It's actually a huge head-fuck
just to be here.
Shoddily resurrected pennants,
or was it penance, small dosed
chances at forgiveness
slick the vantage point
that sharpens
itself on memory.
Sifting each experience
into one more
failed attempt at meaning.
Dave said he was hurtin'
for cash.
Austin said he was late
because he had a fucked up life.
Ludis said he wasn't afraid
of shit.
But these things, I tell you,
have lost the ability to situate
themselves.
They are dark markers.
Knives in the medicine.
Sort of like when Chris said
he either wanted you
or another shot of whiskey,
he wasn't sure,
so you gave him whiskey.